Sweet Dreams Asshole
It’s true. I’m an asshole. We have already established that I’m a terrible friend, a lousy brother, and a dreadful son. I’m also now an incredibly horrible ex, and a worthless boyfriend. I have no right whatsoever to have what I’ve got. I suck. Bad. I handled myself poorly when I answered Sabrina’s drunken call at 12:30 last night. Me with my “sweet dreams” right in front of G. I suck. And Sabrina shouldn’t have called five times afterward but I shouldn’t have called back.
Sabrina? Hey have you just been calling a bunch of times?
Um….well….yeah.
That’s gotta stop.
And then an abrupt hang-up. No goodbyes. Thank God no sweet dreams. And no regard for feelings, for anyone.
***Update Below***
Update 9/18/2004 @ 10:46am: The fact is I didn’t piss off anyone but myself. See, I have this wonderful ability to beat myself up. I more often than not, for almost no reason at all. Nobody was mad at me but myself for my the way I handled things. Neither, G nor Sabrina could give two shits and understood completely. What do they call that when preists beat the sins out of themselves by wipping their own backs? Flagellation? Yeah, thats what I was doing.
1 Melissa Says:
It’s unnerving the way humans can feel adult one day and then behave like children the next.
I’m right there with you. And it’s a horrible feeling.
2 sarah Says:
aw, don’t be too hard on yourself.
Funny similar story - I had a “I’m the worst girlfriend ever” experience and then titled a blog entry “ode to the world’s biggest ass - aka me”… you have no idea how many times I would see google searches for “world’s biggest ass” pop up in my referral logs. I have since changed it to world’s biggest jerk.
by the way (and I only point it out because someone pointed it out to me a couple of years ago) the expression is “one fell swoop”. Weird, eh? Fell (which i didn’t realize at the time) is the verb that means to cut down a tree. See, you feel like ass, and I make you feel better by correcting your idioms. I’m a good blog friend.
3 Satan™ Says:
You win some, you lose some. Who cares. It’s the weekend. I think a brief vacation to the bar would help tonight. At the very least, I know I need one.
4 isabella Says:
Better to be a sincere ass-hole, than a fake ass-hole licker any day.
It really doesn’t even sound that bad, although, i don’t know which one was the girlfriend and i’m a complete ass-hole myself so what would i know?
I just have to ask one question of the ass-hole detractors. Does Timothy Leary rock?
I thought so.
5 teahouseblossom Says:
Wow. Well, if the ex gf called I can see that it was awkward. At least you weren’t the one who drunk-dialed her while you were with the current gf…
6 jocelyn Says:
this sounds dumb. is the new g/f really that insecure that a drunk dial from the ex girlfriend would make her jealous. How old is she 17? tell the ex to STOP calling and then take a second look at the current girlfriend and ask yourself how you think she would react if a serious problem came up.
7 jg Says:
it’s happened to the best of us, hubs…
…and it’s also happened to me.
you may not have made the wisest of choices with your “sweet dreams” remark, but it happens. i’m sure G will get over it.
oh, and i think you handled things just fine with sabrina. sometimes ex’s need the cold hard truth.
8 Rori Says:
I am on MT 3.1.1
I like it.
I adore that the MT-Blacklist works so well with this version.
It also works well on IE or Firefox.
I use the free version, so I would say… Go for it.
9 chevy Says:
i think you’re being a little hard on yourself. sabrina needs to realise that she can’t just call you up and lean on you anytime it’s convienent. and there’s no reason for g to be put out that you were civil to an ex. its not like you were having phone sex.
10 hubs Says:
melissa - we’re all grown up babies.
sarah - thanks. and i used your “fell swoop” fact twice this weekend while camping.
satan - the bar is a problem, not a solution
isabella - assholes of the world unite!
blossom - *cough*
jocelyn - you totally missed the point: i’m the one who is insecure. G said i should answer the call incase it was important. it was the second and third calls that got annoying.
jg - you understood me perfectly. thanks.
chevy - who me? hard on myself? you’re right, and both these women are genuine, intelligent, and understanding. niether of them we’re angry and both understood my position. you know better than anyone i only go for the good ones.
11 gijyun Says:
you didn’t happen to get any photos of the flagellation, did you?
12 hubs Says:
gideon - sticks and stones may break my bones but it’s the words that really hurt me.
13 Satan™ Says:
Ah Hubs, the bar is the solution. All you need to do is drink diet coke like me. Smoking always helps too. But I know what you mean. I beat myself all the time, same way you do, for even dumber shit than this. Take it from another flagellator.